Michael's Ghost!

Now that am alone for few days at home, as my hubby is away for his PhD work. So now all those scary thoughts and feeling haunt me again. Yesterday itself i read on the internet that Michael Jackson's spirit is haunting his own home in Neverland, USA. And that wasn't enough to quench my curiosity adding to that i even went ahead and saw the video clipping and added on to my facebook, just to share with my friends out there.

But unfortunately that image kept on coming in front of my eyes at night... and kind of scared me... not totally scared but kinda got curious that was that really true? and started to think about all nonsense stuff (Which i feel now next day morning) which totally deep rooted then.

My mind questions: is there life after death? Where do all of them move out of this world after they die?... blah blah!!!

Finally i never realized when i went to sleep... But luckily did not get any scary dream that night, which i usually get when i see something scary or that which my subconscious mind has recorded for me to remind me later.. :) Whether good or bad...

I have this bad tendency of remembering most of the things i see, do and hear about.... which will be recorded in my mind forever. Thats the reason i cannot easily forgive people who hurt me... and i suffer with that feeling for LIFE!

Kannada Barutha??

A geeky peek into Bangalore

Aaaah! I am sure most of you in Bangalore would have heard this, but what is Kannada Barutha? Here it goes. Bangalore, the IT capital of India, the silicon city and now a Metro city opened its gates to almost all kinds of people. Very evidently the recent poll census proved that there are only 47 per cent of original inhabitants in Bangalore/Bengaluru. The life style of the city has seen a gradual change with Pizza Corners replacing MTRs, classy eat outs replacing Vidyarthi Bhavans and flashy pubs replacing all our Mahalakshmi wine shops.

Change is inevitable from the days of BEML, HAL and BHEL to Infosys, WIPRO; Bangalore has a new look now on the world map. Gone are the days where a typical Sunday for any Bangalorean was a nice romantic walk on the pavements of Lal Bagh, rave idli and coffee.. at the nearest yet old looking MTR and a wonderful Annavra film either at Santosh or central talkies. Today’s Bangalore is deluged in traffic, stress and pressure, Saturday nights without beer is desolate and a Sunday without a visit to either a nearest spa or health clinic is schlocky!! The Gandhibazars are now AC cooled super markets, Majestic is now replaced by ultra modern and diversified Brigade road, Sri Cauvery coffee joint is now Coffee Day..* and Bhagyalakshmi Coffee Adda.. is now Barista. With globalisation and more retail market the city will definitely see more forceful changes.

Have all these changed our language? Kannada the local language of Bangalore is supposed to be one of the most meaningful languages, it also has an unique script as compared to its other counterparts; but what percentage of people really use Kannada in Bangalore now? The figures are staggering, only 37 per cent of people speak Kannada in the state’s capital, for the rest it is only ‘Kannada Barutha?’

Any normal guy starts with this sentence ‘Kannada Barutha?’ while talking to other person, people confirm before they speak the language. You want to ask an address in Bangalore or reply to a question, then English is the most preferred language other than Hindi. It’s a famous fact that two Kannidagas in an IT company always talk in a neutral language!! even the vendors and shop keepers are channelled with this new wave, the moment when you step in any shop in Bangalore, you are always asked ‘Kannada Barutha?’ or the entire conversation takes place in non-Kannada languages. People have lost confidence about speaking in the local language and moreover speaking Kannada on the streets of M G Road or Koramangala is substandard.
Shopping malls in the city have been completely banned from using Kannada, not a forced one but definitely an adapted one. One has to confirm that the other person knows the language before he starts using any language. ‘Ondu glass beer’ is a insult when it comes to any decorous pub in Bangalore. ‘Swalpa menu card kodthira..??’ has been replaced by ‘Can I have the menu card please?’

Just to hit some facts, Marathi is still the largest and common speaking language in Mumbai even though Mumbai has the highest number of inhabitants. Telugu is a practised ritual in yet another IT hub Hyderabad. When it comes to Tamil Nadu, beware you can be alive either if you are a fan of Rajnikanth or you know Tamil. Malyalam runs in the blood of every Mallu be it Kuwait, Dubai or any hospital; but when it comes to Kannada it is always ‘Kannada Barutha?’ and next is ‘Namaskara.’

I am neither a Kannada activist nor do I run any Kannada supporting organisation, I am just a plebeian who loves the language.
Globalisation is the trend and modernisation is the mantra but at the cost the language? Sounds no logic.. Is speaking Kannada down market? The answer has to be found within oneself. Next time when you hear ‘Kannada Barutha?’ you just remember that Kannada runs in your blood..

Courtesy: Bangalore Mirror, Dt:July 8th 2009

दो दिन की ज़िन्दगी !

ये करे और वो करे, ऐसा करे, वैसा करे,
ज़िन्दगी दो दिन की हैं,
दो दिन में हम क्या क्या करे ?
क्या करे , क्या न करे ...

ಈ ಜೀವನನೆ ಇಷ್ಟು ... ಏನ್ ಮಾಡಬೇಕೋ ಏನ್ ಮಾಡ ಬಾರದೋ...
ಇದೆ ಯೋಚನೆ ಅಲ್ಲೇ ಜೀವನ ಮುಗುಧೋಗುತ್ತೆ ....

Graveyards I pass by everyday...

Everyday i pass by the graveyards of Hindu, Muslim and Christians, while am on my way to office. In the beginning i used to feel scared of these places and lot of negative thoughts used to haunt me. Even today these thoughts haunt my mind.

The other day while i was on my way back to home, i received a call from my hubby .

My Husband- "where are you?"
Me - "Harishchandra Ghat"

As my cab was just passing by Harishchandra Ghat, a Hindu burial place.

My Husband - Are you kidding?
Me - No, am serious.

I guess he might have felt something strange, as we a fight last night. And i was depressed as usual.
I keep thinking that what if I die the next moment?
Feel shocked and feel that I haven't lived my complete life yet!
But then I also feel prepared for my death anytime.

Me - What if am dead very soon?

My Husband - Silent! says if you are talking such rubbish things, then please don't. Gives a sad look to me.

Me - I feel kind of happy that he has concern for me and going to miss me. Though not sure that he is gonna stay single after my gone.


I fear to lose my loved ones, but feel that everybody has to die one or the other day. These graveyards scare me because I do not want to lose my loved ones, instead prefer go first from this world.

Earlier graveyards used to be outside the city. Now they are at the center of the city. We can imagine how the population is exponentially growing. The death rates have gone down due to advanced medication.

Some times i feel that where all humans are chasing themselves to? why all these fights and differences? why this jealousy? When everything is so short lived on this earth.

Why do we care for our skin and looks so much, which is finally going to be destroyed into ashes one day!

But still there are so many products in the market to make oneself beautiful... huh.. everything seems meaningless to me.

So people may say that as long as we are alive we need to look good feel good... yes i agree but not be always thinking and working towards it and waste our precious time as well.

And now are the days, I feel that these are the most safest places on the earth, with full of peace and silence...

I feel that life is so short... and our desires are endless... the people i saw last year, month or day are not there today. Where all of them are gone? I keep wondering. In this cycle of life and death everything is so temporary!

There is a kannada song i remember "allide namma mane, illige bandevu summane" ( Our Home is up somewhere in the sky, and we have come here just like that to visit) sounds so very true indeed!

All such thoughts pass by as i pass by these graveyards, every single day! huh... these thoughts are haunting me, rather than the spirits of these graveyards.

a big sigh.......!

Feeling Good Today!

I am kinda happy today, though i don't know the reason why? I think many things in life do not have a reason to be the way they are, and i like it that way!

Why it happens only with me always?

Normally when simple things work easily for people, it doesn't for me. I wonder why it always happens with me. Take for instance adding this simple option called reactions to my blog is not happening.... :( in spite of trying so many times, checking all the settings, no matter how hard i try things do not just work for me...

Got New Look for Myself!

At last my dream since so long came true. I got streaks done to my hair. Thanks to my friend Gombi for accompanying me. It costed me 1500 including all taxes. It took 3 hours for hair cut, wash and colouring.. its too long to get it done.. But the result is good... everyone in my office liked it and i love it too :) and also did nice shopping for my parents and hubby as well. And not to forget i also shopped for Gombi which brought a big nice smile on her face which i liked it that way! hope she also settles down well in life ASAP...
I now want to surprise my parents as well .... :) hope they also like it.. .am sure they are not going to... :(