Very true...

It’s hard to wait around for something that you know may never happen, but it’s even harder when you know its everything you want!!!!!

To Be / Not To Be...

I am sure this statement might have stroked to people many a times in there life. This seems to be so very true.. many times we are just unable to make any decision.. and kind of lost. Whatever decision we take will affect negatively or positively in our rest of our life. I think everything is decided by that God for us.. but still we think we decide... and proceed how foolish is human being. Some times we do not want to do certain things, but still we do that.. i donno why.. and we call it helplessness... when we know that humans are so helpless at times, but he still thinks he is superior animal... nothing lies in our hands. I am very well realizing that we are just mere puppets to dance to the tunes of that Almighty!

I am Fighting Back!

Its so difficult to fight back against the system of this Indian society.... being a woman is still more like a curse. but yes, i am trying to do that and the fun behind doing is inexplicable. I am enjoying it... am kind of feeling better and more confident. Its making me more stronger day by day.... all thanks to my genes.. i woe to my granny...... now all my family members are saying that my grand mother is born again seeing all my activities, my talks and all and am equally proud of it and my grand mother has now totally become my role model, though i spent very less time with her in my early childhood.

Thanks to all my family members and friends for supporting me in my rough times in Life. i feel God is showering his blessings by giving me more troubles and also giving me strength to over come difficulties. I feel am blessed.. am glad...in this tough time too.. i think very few people have this daring to do what they want to do, still with family support.. am fortunate enough for that matter... i think this is the best Birthday Gift for me from God so far.... i feel this as my honest gratitude to that almighty!

What to write.. huh!

Dear Reader/Visitor,

I extremely apologize for repeatedly posting sad views of mine... Please do not label me as sadist.. am totally not.. rather am a fun loving person. But life is not always bed of roses.. we all know that. I also feel that some time i should also share some happy moments too... but for the time being you have to bear with my sad stuff only... :(

I feel like writing down my life story today, but some what feeling down and not able to make it. If i start writing.. its like endless story. But i wish i could write down my story and feel like getting feedback from various people. Unfortunately i have less visitors to my blog though.

Seriously, life never went on track the way i wanted it to be. No matter how hard i try. We forget that the next person does not necessarily think the same way as i do. Its like "one man's food is another man's poison".... i wish this world would not have had any problems at all. It would be filled with peace and love for ever for each and every creature on the mother earth.... life should be as beautiful as flower, but it fades...no sorrows.. no pain.. but yes if "No Pain, No Gain"!

I will surely some day put up my story on my blog... whenever i feel like will do it...

I am remembering yet another sad song of Kishore da...

"Mera Jeevan Kora Kagaz, Kora Hi reh Gaya..
Jo likha tha.. aasun ke sang beh gaya...

Such a wonderful song.. i wonder how the lyrics can have such a capacity to express one's feeling so perfectly.... Yes, we Indians eat, drink and Live Cinema..... after all our lives are like a Cinema and we have to do the justice to our roles anyway.. Life moves on... and on.. no matter what happens.. so many disasters happened, but we never stop living and losing hope...

Why are we lost in our own world and in our own problems? There are so many needy who needs help.. why cant we help them out.. and look for our happiness in them? God! you would have been that kind enough to grant this feeling in today's people..... i wish you could have .. i wish.. i wish.. i wish...."Loka samastha Sukhino Bhavantu", "Sarve Jana Sukhino Bhavantu".. i think we all have forgotten such magical words.. and knowledge in THIS busy corrupted World.

We eat food for our BODY, but forget to feed our SOUL so lazily!

Zindagi ka safar...

Zindagi ka safar hain yeh kaisa safar.... this song is kind of my present situation in life... thanks to the writer and the singer (Kishore Da) for making it so real and heart touching...

Zindagi ka safar...

Zindagi ka safar hain yeh kaisa safar
Koi samjha nahin koi jaana nahi...

Hai yeh kaisi yeh dagar,
Chalte hain sab magar
Koi samjha nahin koi jaana nahin...

Zindagi ko bahut pyar humne diya..
Maut se bhi mohobbat nibhayenge hum...
Rotee rotee zamane mein aai magar
Hasate hasate zamane se jaayenge hum...
Jayange par kidhar hain kisi yeh khabar...
Koi samjha nahi koi jaana nahin..

Aise jeevan bhi hain jo jeeye hi nahin...
Jinko jeene se he pehle hi maut aagai
Phool aise bhi hain jo khile hi nahi
Jinko khilne se pehle phiza kha gai
Hain pareshan nazar, thak gai chaar agar
Koi samjha nahi koi jaana nahin...


Right now this song very well signifies my life....

Thanks to the writer and singer ( Kishore Da) for making it so real and heart touching....

LOVE / HATE...Am Lost!

I am kind of lost in life... as this is not a new feeling for me though. Many a times i do not realize what am doing...? and am least bothered about it. and just leave it and keep worrying about what happened...

We realize the importance of something when its not there in front of us.. we kind of miss it. but when the same thing is around we take it for granted and neglect it. Its damn human nature to be that way. But how long will this ignorance go on....? Men should realize its importance when its right there with them... I think this is the reason to be sad about certain things or people!

We keep thinking about the person always...
1) Whom we hate the most
2) Whom we love the most

So our mind kind of becomes so much conscious about the person ( whom we love or hate ) in his/her presence and mind gets confused/frustrated/worried and all sort of things happen in mind totally it takes away the peace out of our mind.. i wonder why it all happens.. why can't we control all these feelings?

Sometimes i feel i love that person the most.. when i think about the good things about him/her. But the same thing applies to hate if some gray memories haunt (Always applies to me) my mind. So it becomes so very difficult to decide about whether i love or hate that person in total.

And i just keep on thinking forever to decide on this...